Thursday, June 21, 2007

Last night, out of nowhere we had a conversation just before Ben went to sleep. It went like this:

Mommy?

Yes Ben?

When I get bigger can I drive a big blue tractor?

Sure, if you want to.

Ok

posted by BensMom04 @ 9:32 AM 0 comments

Robbie doesn't have two Mommies...

There it is. 3 years, 3 months. The first time Ben asked, 'Why doesn't Robbie have two Mommies'. As quick as that, we said, the standard answer, that some people have a mommy and daddy and some people have one mommy and some people have.... and it was good enough. for now.

posted by BensMom04 @ 9:30 AM 2 comments

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Ben is transitioning again. He has such a hard time with changing teachers. I was hoping now that he had friends at school it would go a little easier, but no. He doesn't care about his friends, he cares about Miss Kathy and his routine. It's just heartbreaking to have to peel your crying child from you and leave them somewhere that they don't want to be. I know that he will get used to it, but I just hate these transitions.

posted by BensMom04 @ 9:51 AM 0 comments

Sunday, June 03, 2007

I'm 39 today. Seems strange. I feel so young and so old at the same time. I feel pretty much the same way I did when I was younger, I don't think my views have changed that much, but I certainly see the difference between me and a 'twenty something'. Then there is the physical - it's hard to say if it is because I am out of shape and over weight or just getting old. My body certainly feels old. Can't imagine what another 39 years will do to this body. I realize now that most of my friends are in their 40s and 50s and I guess this is kinda mid-life. It's weird. I was saying to Mary the other day after we saw 'the year of magical thinking' in NY that we are at the edge of that time when we will experience loss more often. Both parents and friends are aging and we are going to start losing people at an accelerated pace. And then I look at Ben. He is so full of life and health - and I am so grateful for him. I never could have imagined or predicted what my 39th birthday might look like. Even though I feel kinda contemplative today, I am overwhelmingly grateful for my life.

posted by BensMom04 @ 6:47 AM 2 comments